What I wan to be in 10 years time

lost myself... again i lost myself.. now can be consider as the last minute already.. but,i stil blur.. blur about it.. dont know where to start on it? dont know what type of questions the stupid lecturer may come out? but,the important point is i dont have any motivation in my studies..
maybe the cause is come from lazy.. the word of lazy really killing me..
i never listen while that old man was teaching in front of me..so,it can be as a very very hard and tough subject for me...

then,i asked my GOD... nolar actually.. he actually was my classmate... an intelligent and siao siao one guy.. he can study and play in the same time.. i told him about my problem and he told me call my mom and talk to her...but,,my mom sleeping lol..(actuallly this noon she just called me)

so,he suggested an another to me.. thats write an essay title *What I wan to be in 10 years time*


as u all know, my ambition is not be a quantity surveyor.. but,is to be a physcologist...
just becasue of the many many and many reasons,,i join it.. the QS course...
from the day i enter and be a part of quantity surveyor... i already accept it..
accept the fact that i was born to be a quantity surveyor..

after having many talks with my uncles those also quantity surveyor..
i know about my future... i have to follow the sequence...starting from measure this measure that.. then, learn a lot of the contract... master those contract because it useful while we communicate with our clients,.. and if im work hard or even good luck enough,,maybe can be a contract manager.. that consider as the leader of quantity surveyors..

so, to achieve that level..i know i have to follow step by step.. since i admit that im a future quantity surveyor, i never blame about it anymore.. just try to do my best in every assignments, projects, practicals...the reason is i want to learn more.. i want to get more and more info on it..(seems i have no other choices)..

i dont want the last time attitude already.. every test..every works also last minute work.. tired u know?? i just want everything going to be fine...can get a ok ok result.. thus, can join a weell known company and be a quantity surveyor.. a quantity surveyor that really got knowledge and skills.. a quantity surveyor that not regret this and that.. a quantiry surveyor that not feel regret after every test... thats what i want to be...

i dont want disappointed my mom and dad that hope one of their son be a good quantity surveyor(seems my brother already join in marketing family)..so,,i am the only hope for them..
i know why they want me to be a quantity surveyor.. they dont want me experience the hard and tough life as what they having right now...
second,,i dont want to disappointed my 3 uncles that working as a quantity surveyor in current.
i want take them as my role model... want to be part of them..

thats all what im thinking right now.. so,, measurement is my first challenge in the way to be a good quantity surveyor.. .. hope that i can pass over it..
and no more last minute work in my life....because i am a quantity surveyor.. that not easily give up (hope so,,hahaha)

clarence,,thanks.. quite useful actually... =.=

从前从前

记得周董那首歌是这么唱到的－－从前从前，有个人爱我很久，但偏偏风渐渐，
把距离吹得好远．．． （（一首我最爱的歌曲）

爱我？是她吗？还是我朋友？是我同学吗？还是我敬爱的家人哦？
曾经有个知己告诉过我．．你懂吗？你的人生很幸福．有超疼爱你的家人．
有一群超friend的朋友．甚至有出现过的仰慕者．．
老实说，那时候的我只是觉得非常的开心．．开心与不开心．．
可以说是我人生的所有．那种种的一切．．都有他们的参与．．他们的相伴左右．

很无聊哦？突然写那么多的废话！！没法子咯．．超闷嘛．．又不能读书．．
身体很疲倦却又睡不着．．就好想我那群猪朋狗友了．．还有我的爸妈．．
相信这来临的假期，我可真要好好的陪陪他们了．．
好久没有一伙出去玩了．好久没有谈话到天亮．．好久没有骑摩托车逛街了．．
也好久没有跟他们去逛夜市了．．

接着就是我去年的一段超有意义的生活．．
四餐（包括夜宵）都一起．．骑脚踏车到处逛．．去湖边吹风．．淋雨弄湿身体．．
到mamak谈天．．坐窗外看风景．．说心事．．种种的一切．．
当然少不了我最开心的是我好朋友第一次骑脚车载我．．那差些跌到的感觉好恐怖哦！

那种特别与众不同的感觉，处于城市是永远永远享受，体会不到的．．
这就是我的人生．．不对！！应该是以前的人生．．
也许有好多人觉得那时幼稚天真的想法？！但，那就是我．．我的过去．．
也因为如此，好想回到从前哦．就到那种无忧无虑．．不会时时受尽折磨．．
受尽人性悲惨的多样化性格．．

就那么的简单．．有家人相陪左右．．有一大群知心良伴随我身边．．
一起的分享人生的喜怒哀乐．．那么简单的生活又该有多好呢？
去听听吧．．．周杰伦的那首歌．．．晴天．．

人生的污点

在我的人生，除了学业之外．我真的很少很少让自己会有不满的．就算是，我也都会努力让自己 不要抱着后悔的．唯一我真的真的很后悔的就是．．．．我今天的题目－－人生的污点

好久好久以前，记得她家里发生了非常非常严重的事情．也因为如此，我俩就那么草率的完了． 我抱怨为何她是可以那么的不把我带着身边一起面对．就让她选择独自面对她新的人生新的生活．就那样的，我们开始鲜少联络了．．还记得有一次，我看到她发的一封信息．．原来她要我
上网找她聊天．．但，我可是过了一段非常久的时候才发现那信息．．是好几个月的时间．．．

我甚至天真的以为也许她是要适应她那新的读书环境吧？！

就在半小时前，我看了她的部落格．第一次！！这竟然是我第一次看她所写的东西．
顿时间，我真的再次的后悔了！要是我当初紧握着她！要是我当初没那么的吊儿郎当！
种种的一切都会变得不一样了．她也不会那么的辛苦．．经历这种种的生活了．．

黄忠豪！！！就算这年里你不曾碰感情又怎么样？就算现在后悔又可以如何？？
你终究是个弱者！是个曾经失败到极点的弱者．．
好想时光到流哦！那么我就可以好好的补偿！！别发梦啦！！

好希望现在可以在你身边，就算只是你身旁的那位普通的聆听者．．
我也满足了．．真的．．
现在，就好好读书咯！！学业是你人生的全部．．．加油吧．．

真诚的那句．．．对不起！！
还有加油噢．．希望你的学业能够让你找到快乐．．重新回到那个开朗的你．．

最后冲刺的结果

刚完成了degree的第一科考试．说实在的，还真的蛮后悔．为何又再次的临时抱佛脚呢？
是否这早已形成了的一种学习态度呢？以前是这样，现在也是，将来呢？
难道就已那种草草了事的态度继续我的人生吗？悲哀悲哀．．．

其实老天还真的没真正的放弃到我吧？因为我在昨天，也就是说考前一天．．老天爷显灵
了呢！有位神教我了许许多多的东西．．还蛮欣慰啦其实，就当周遭围绕着一群无畏的时候，
有位朋友是还不错的．还是那发出内心的那句话－－谢谢咯,那位很凶的老师．沈老师！！！
真的教了我许多东西，当中当然也少不了那些愚蠢的问题吧？看来可是最没脑的那位学生．
总结还算不错啦，可以及格咯（虽然忘记了许多）．．哈哈哈．．

考完了这又可以歇息下．毕竟最后的冲刺耗尽了许许多多的精力呢！
所以咯？为什么要最后一分钟？？为什么？？
早点准备，早点学习．．不就好了嘛？？哎！！！

总之现在的心情好零乱哦！好像立即完毕那些耗费体力精神的考试．回家好好的休息个够．
回家跟我父母还有外公吃晚餐，谈天．．回家和朋友聚聚．毕竟也只有他们才是我现在
想要珍惜的，应该拥有的．也只有他们才是真正的了解及关心我黄忠豪的．真的　也只有他们．．

最后，希望接下来别再最后一分钟了咯．最后一分钟的努力真的好辛苦啦！！
再次的谢谢那位沈老师．．谢谢．．．

reality world

wow.. now only i know. really.. i know many many and many new things since the first day i join the family of Setapak or even the group of Quantity Surveying. really quite diff from wat the life i experienced before.. nonon.. is totally diff.!!

i cant tahan those people who care their marks as well.. cant understand why people so selfish.. and oso cant imagine how their coming life ll going on.. let say.. now u got 4.0 in ur whole degree courses.. got the first honour in ur cert.. then get a good job and be a millionaire or maybe billionaire.. but,will u happy in the end?? dont stupid lar!!!! use your brain to work ok??

next time,ur children and ur grandchildren ask aboutur study life..ur style of communication.. ur pattern on how u treat ur frens.. can u answer for that? u know how to face them indeed? just try to think in normal way,zhong hao... dis few days, my closer frens keep asking me to do so... keep calling me.. keep messaging me.. or even my mom oso call me so often.. ask me try to be happy always.. enjoy my life then.. im trying , mom n my true frens.. wish me gud luck ya..(although it is really hard.. really really hard..for me)

i dont even know hows ll i going to change myself after 4 years..i cant imagine... and oso not dare to face the new characteristics.. i scare i lost my own character that i like the most.. i scare to lost those happiness while mixing wif people..

btw,i have to thx to those people that can forgot many things so oftenly.. to those peole that like to ignore many stuff while together.. to those reality people that like mark or even results to become better 1 people.. u all make me awake.. i really wake up dis time.. for u all, result is the best prove.. and can try to use any methods just to get what u all wish to get... i really thx and pei fu u all.. u all make me learn many new things ooh.. so,,have to say THANK YOU ya... hahaha

and, i would like to say thanks to those accompany,keep talking in phone,keep messaging one closet frens oh.. escpecially my hometown frens and my 1359 housemates...again thx u all( from heart lar dis time).. hahaha...i am still myself while be with u.. dont worry... it is because the moment be with u all,,i only can get the happy and really enjoy.. dis call LIFE.....

for those who read dis blog, try to understand the meaning of life.. result is not everything.. but happy is the most important in our LIFE....